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Posted on September 24, 2009 - by jennifer
NEED
NEED
I am only breathing because I close my eyes and taste your touch tiptoeing along my psyche.
The most explicit lyrics can’t verbalize how much I throb for your acquaintance. Wanting to know more about you than I do myself.
Felt you way before words were ever spoken. Silence enhanced the moment, allowed my mind to free and lay somewhere over, between the ocean and the sand.
I lost me beneath our first encounter. So engrossed in your smile that I immediately fell into a space from long ago.
Simple. Easy. First.
Listening to your voice was different. Your spirit held my attention. Nothing wrong with a little edge. You had an idea about life, the sun, stars, neither of which has always shone light your way.
But God was there. Underneath the dirt, there was a man. A good one.
I was drowning in this feeling. Submerged. Scared. Scared to give myself like this again. Not Love. I’m talking Like.
L-I-K-E.
Like how a smile creeps across my face when I see yours after a long day. Or like when we hug like friends do before they depart. I’m talking about what makes you call me as soon as your mind gives you a clue that it’s time. Not to talk. But to hear. And listen. And know that everything’s alright.
Been so long since I allowed all of me to get this close. Realizing that it’s now or never. Fantasizing about this day since yesterday. Happy to know that God heard my prayers from years ago. Had almost given up. Had almost let go of ever knowing this emotion again. Had turned to myself to be my everything.
But once your hand touched mine, my fingertips loosened, my body became alert, my energy transformed. And I knew at that very second that I NEEDED you.
Now all you NEED is my name…
Posted on August 20, 2009 - by jennifer
Social Cheating cont…
Social Cheating
It silently calls my name as I peer over the tops of medicated lens, looking for the sound that has crept into my mind.
Huh? I call out quietly shifting my ear towards the screen.
I hear it again, a faint “ding” from afar.
Realizing my speakers are turned down, a smile spills onto my face as I recognize the gentle murmur.
It’s a message from Facebook.
Someone wants to chat.
“Hi, how r u?” the first message reads.
I quickly reply, happy to break from the blog I was writing for my website.
The innocent conversation quickly diminishes; transforms into a flirting contest.
“You still look good.”
“You too.”
“We should meet up sometime.”
“Sure.”
As I chat shamelessly, unaware of the progression of time, a light flashes on.
I glance at the figure standing in the doorway, then back at my fingers firmly placed on the home row keys.
“Oh, hi babe,” I say, swiftly clearing the guilt away from the monitor before he can completely walk into the room.
“What you doing?” he asked.
“Nothing, writing a blog about cheating via social networks.”
My mind wonders, social cheating, what an interesting concept.
Posted on August 18, 2009 - by jennifer
Social Cheating
You’ve seen the show; a man sits at his computer, chatting on the internet with an actor who is pretending to be a teenager looking for a good time. The chat leads to a face-to-face meeting which transitions into the dramatic capture of an aging, overworked married man who’s trying to sleep with an underage girl. While social media hasn’t, to my knowledge, produced such theatrical results, it has opened the path to what I’d like to term “social cheating.”
I don’t know many people over 18 who aren’t partially infatuated with Facebook, Myspace, or Twitter. And even if you aren’t addicted, you at least have an account which requires some upkeep or maintenance. What’s the purpose of these sites? To meet people, connect with old friends, maybe network here or there and date. But if you’re married or in a serious relationship, connecting with old or potential flames is where the problem begins.
I’ve talked to many people who have started conversing innocently with someone from the past about old times, with typical small talk, “how you been,” or “where do you work,” which is fine for a while until you’ve exhausted the back and forth chatter. Then you either stop all together or move to the subtle flirting. “You still look good,” or “I used to have the biggest crush on you,” or “you sure are taking care of yourself.” Finally, those compliments tend to go a little further by eventually the exchange of phone numbers or the ultimate let’s meet up line: “It sure would be nice to see you again” or “we should catch up when I’m in town.”
This progression of online wordplay, has I’m sure, damaged if not broken homes all over this great nation, better yet world. My advice, if you find yourself easily tempted by the sweet talk of those who may have once been “the one” before the “current one,” ignore any old lovers friend request and post not so flattering pictures to your profile. This might not keep you from “social cheating” but will deter you from being caught on a hidden camera typing hysterically into the wee morning hours and then being caught by your significant other, who has a secret of their own, with your hands in the cookie jar – so to speak.
b-e-z
-Jennifer N. Shannon